1 and a half months of new life.... while its only 2 months to go for another big step...

So here i am... sitting down in my small room in Kerteh. 

a bit cramped up compared to my previous life, and there are nights where i wake up in the middle of the night seeing a cockroach crawling joyfully just beside my pillow while i sleep... causing me to sleep with a small torchlight and a cockroach aerosol repellent by my side. 

it's not exactly the life i was expecting... but to be honest... its different and the fact that i get to see my lovely pregnant wife every week beats any roach that would like to take that away from me (spoken with a vengeance). 

like my lovely friend Ati always mention in her blog "of those KL drivers i dont get" and i'm compelled to mention one here. Being in Bintulu, i tend to drive chilled out. average speed 80 - 90 km/hr and a speed of which i know most people average out in Bintulu. the roads are terrible at times with potholes just ambush you from nowhere like a sinkhole in Chile. 

But when i started to drive here... if there is one thing i dont get... why do people drive here at average speed 110 - 120 km/hr in KERTEH & PAKA only. Reasons not to drive that fast:-

1. Seriously people, its only Kerteh and Paka. There's only one freaking main road. You either drive up or down to work. no curves, no turns, nothing. and vice versa when you're heading home. ONE MAIN ROAD. What's the freaking rush??

2. Seriously people, the roads are amazingly smooth, no idiots who stop in the middle of the highway to pick up passengers, why drive so carelessly?? 

3. Seriously people, I've heard of random animals (huge one, ie:- cows and wild boars) crossing the main road. it sure sucks to hit them at a speed 100 km/hr or more. so why drive so aggressively?

other than that, working is a bliss so far. and i dont wanna jinx it. motivation is such at a high level i can't even care much what others say about this place. I'm loving it so far. and having an established movie theater just 2 minutes drive for my place.... nuff said. 

2 more months....

Well... if there is one thing i havent mentioned in my writings so far... I'm going to be a father. and yes... only 2 months to go. 

there are times when i look at the mirror, or when im driving, while listening to Foo Fighters, Bob Marley, or Beastie Boys, it makes me wonder what kind of dad i'm gonna be. My wife's pretty chilled about it, which is good. I bought some books for her, and read some. while for myself, i bought "Dude, you're gonna be a Dad" as i thought the language spoke to me. 

i keep wondering, am i financially stable and prepared for my baby to come to this world? 

or is this world even stable as it is for my baby to come to this world? There are times that's going through my head to tell my wife to just hold the baby in for a little while until the world gets better... 

but in reality... it doesnt. and love it or not, its something coming... and all i can do i teach my child to be a great loving, motivated individual. 

will i be a great dad? i sure hope so. and i also found out that i'll be having a baby girl. and then, it hit me. and slowly... i understood... why Dad's are so protective of their little girls. i know im just stretching it, but i've already imagined boys oogling while i make that grumpy Dad face, or whenever she introduces a boy to both my wife and i at our home, i'm so urged to say "wait a minute honey, let me get my machete from our room". 

i've met people who've said, "The biggest change in my life was not the being married part, the biggest change in my life was when i had my first child". and in this case, i'm starting to really feel it. 

I do still wonder what do people think when they take look at me and find out i'm gonna be a dad. the guy with the spiked hair, cargo shorts, and his surfer tshirts. weirdly, i dont care. all i care is the unlimited love im giving to my little girl and the mother who's carrying it. 

Dear Daddy's little girl, 

(in my Sabah accent), Daddy doakan both your Mama and I akan jadi great parents to you and that you'll grow up jadi urang yang baik, cerdik, and contribution to Islam & society. Amin.

4 months....


Well, its final. I've gotten my letter and i will be leaving for Terengganu by End of June. Feelings? Mixed.

I remember watching How I Met Your Mother this latest season and one of the things that they mentioned before the point of resigning, or leaving something for something new, majority of people go through as what's called the "Graduation effect". The effect mainly causes some nostalgic feelings and at times makes you nervous to move to somewhere new and sometimes to the point of on the verge of changing your mind.

That's what's happening to me lately. Once I held the letter, I was even having some nostalgics looking at the shrubs beside my office; of which i think is superbly idiotic. But then the great thing is, lucky for me, there's so many idiotic drivers here and the roads are just sooooo messed up! everytime i bump into either of these, i do feel much better.

Other things i did tell myself about this new place, well despite the drive is about 4hrs away from KL, the great thing about it, my wife is just a drive away. And it'll be easier to start my own family insya Allah.

Well, weekend? what weekend? Terengganu's weekend falls on Friday and Saturday. Sure, i'll never get used to this, but you know what, when i drive back to KL on Thursday, i'll be able to have the whole working day on Friday in KL and then maybe i can focus on my writings (suuure... i say that a lot, but well, let's just try).

Where i'll be working, they dont have great Jungle Trekking sites nor do they have a mini stadium for me to jog safely and comfortably on the nice red running track. Despite all that, they did say there's one hill where it is a nice run. Also, i am kinda hoping there's a mini gym where i'll be working. if not, either way, i might be joining the gym at the local club.

Martial arts... well im pretty much into martial arts. I think there's Taekwondo, but i'm definitely not into it. too robotic. There's no Aikido, pretty much the one that i'm into, so what do i do? I heard there's Silat Gayong, but i dont know, after leaving that more than 10 yrs ago (shaitss!! that perspective makes me feel old!), my only option would probably be to attend a class in KL on Fridays or Thursdays at least once a month. There's Capoeira close to where we currently live in PJ, that might help a bit.

4 hours traveling time from Kerteh to KL? well let's see, if i work in Bintulu, check in an hour before, go on the flight, reach there, if i have bags, then i usually take the bus or the train to KL which is almost another hour. So? that's a total of 4hrs too! well sure, traveling time is more or less the same, but i guess its a cheaper... then i did some calculation. Assuming i'm driving back and forth every weekend, with toll and fuel, back and forth (does not include my normal fuel consumption to work and back), i found out that the total cost for me is roughly RM640 permonth! that's even more expensive than flying to KL from Bintulu. but wait! i just found out a lot of people drive out on Thursday, and yes, they give rides, and you pitch in. So, cost optimization on that side. so yeay!

from my initial judgement, Kerteh seems like such a better place than Bintulu. Mainly on the cost of living (i found a room that's RM80/month, but was also told its crazy small, so gonna keep on looking) and also with the new Mesra Mall, there's Starbucks, Secret Recipe, and most of all, GSC/TGV (i dont know which) there! and its new too!! so? YEAY!! Big point there for a movie geek like me.

One of the things was that, insya Allah, a great thing is gonna happen this year and praying for the best of it. and i got a feeling, that's the biggest reason why i'm moved to Kerteh. Sure, it might not be KL, but well, it's closer... somewhat.

Laters!

Taken....


Well, i was sitting down mellowing once in a while, and at times, i feel that the peak of my youth has been robbed of me because of where i am.

But as much as i wanna complain, i know for a fact there's a reason and my dad keep telling me to recollect where you are now and compare it to those you know who are less fortunate. as much as i'd hate to admit it... he is true and that im in a love hate rship with this place. oh well.

Mega Disaster....


As most of you know, about a month ago, Japan was hit by a mega quake of 9 Rich which implicated to a tsunami which then caused another hazardous disaster of the nuclear plant in which, sadly, is still in the process of recovering and sadly, may never recover.

For a country that's been experiencing tsunamis since we can ever remember, and has come up with numerous interventions & emergency action and response to such a situation, they've lost about 11 thousand to date with 17 thousand still reported missing.

its sad and at the same time eerie on how powerful and amazing the disaster was and it got me thinking (of which i ended up dreaming). if it ever happened close to our shore, of which, im obviously praying that it may never, how are we ever going to mitigate or at least minimize such impact? i was discussing one time with my fellow colleagues on what did they do upon the warning that was given to them, and they all said they were flabbergasted and didnt even know how to react if such incident does happen.

the scarier fact that i work in one of the most hazardous place in the country which can then cause major implication to the nation if such tragedy happen (only slightly smaller scale as compared to a nuclear plant). it really does scare me. and what scares me more is how our country still seem a bit ignorant in developing such plans and mitigations should such things happen, and the fact that the aftershock quakes are starting to happen close to home, ie:- Philippines and Myanmar around 5-6 Rich.

i dreamt that i was stuck in a building after pushing everyone to leave when such incident happen. luckily i woke up before knowing whatever happened to me. to be honest, i dont think id wanna know. some inception thing i wouldnt ever want to learn of. at this point however, all i can ever think of are the safety of those people i love so much in my life.

here's a short fact, the tsunami that happened is an normal sized tsunami which is about 10 meters highs reaching the speed of 800km/hr. seeing how the cars that were driving unknowingly on the road of their coming fate as such disaster happen was very very heart wrecking.

however, scientist are saying that the 10 Rich earthquake has yet to happen, and there's thing called the Mega Tsunami or another one that's called a Meteosunami or sumthing? the waves can go up to 500 - 800 meters caused by major landslides or meteor falling to earth. speed? i have no idea. and in this modern times, it did happen a number of times and one of them was in Alaska (google it up) but thankfully enough, due to the remote area of the location, only two individuals died.

if we're not prepared for the 10 meters ones, are we even prepared for a 500 meters?

all in all, life's too short to be bitter all the time and hold a grudge. i guess being positive is important, as long as we dont piss others at the same time.

Gnites

Food for thought....


Well yesterday i was at a local restaurant about to pay for my bill when i saw on the counter something that really caught my eye. something called "Kismis Doa", or "Blessed Raisins". Actually i've seen this on the same counter numerous times only up until yesterday my thoughts started processing it (because before this i was just too busy to notice).

i've learned about this so called "Kismis Doa" since i was in secondary school. but instead of calling it kismis doa, they just call it kismis. we were given in a talk that raisins are a good supplmentary for B-Complex which enhance the thinking process of a brain (i guess?). well, being young and gullible, we took it in and succumb to the idea. back then though, i just bought California raisins.

then wham bam 15 years later (damn im that old), some genius came up with kismis doa. so here comes my thought process... what was the difference with me consuming the normal california raisins? is it because there's a pretty woman on the box? wait a minute, that's a different brand. that's Raisin Brand. California Raisin is where there's a bunch of grapes with deep black voices and sing awesome motown.

anyway, so what's the difference? sure, it's blessed per say? so does its supposed to enhance better then the other normal raisins? wait a minute, lets go back to where the raisins are processed. vineyard, grape, dried, same like normal raisins but unlike others, there another step which is the Doa stage.

here's some intriguing questions
1. a normal nice person with reciting a short prayer for a california raisins, and eating it.
2. a disturbing individual, naughty, messed up, your typical juve, eating the kismis doa.

are you saying that'll change the messed up juve? or are you saying the normal nice person, who says at least the standard Bismillah on his raisins before consuming it will BE the messed juve kid and in turn switching places?

and i think, blessed things should not be sold.... unless they're a wooden stake to be driven into a vampire's heart. am i wrong to think that way? the main concern is Vitamin B complex in the raisins right? why such a person wants to make money that way? and what kinda person buys one anyway? i got a feeling that a lot of people are with me on this one. i believe prayers make a difference, but the ones that are sincere, free, and most of all, if it comes from yourself that has value (aside our parents and loved ones).

till next time....

Twist!!

oh how much is my life a twist. previously, i went to an interview, super awesome about 4 hours drive still away from my wife, but i'd take it either way. Reason being:-

1. Well, it's 4 hrs DRIVE away. things are still in my control.
2. Despite having less pay due to some allowances removed, i was actually very excited no matter what because i've told myself to start new.

yes... i told myself, what ever the situation, i would want to a fresh start. new motivation. and i accepted. not long after i returned from peninsular, next thing i know, i got another offer (actually two of which i turned down one because it didnt attract me as much). this time, the offer was a project of my own field. the catch is, i still have to be further away from my wife. which is about 2.5hrs flight away. just a bit more than Bintulu. nevertheless... this place has so much mooooore frequent flights to KL. where's the posting i'm talking about? none other than, Kota Kinabalu.

Yes... after almost 17 years being away from Sabah, and being most of the time, either a) tourist b) a lost visitor, there's a huge possibility that i'll be back there again. yes, despite the distance, i've discussed this with dayana and we both agreed that it's best for my career and if i do well, moving to KL after wont be much of a problem. plus, she has more meetings in KK than she has in Bintulu. verdict: if this really happens, then, KK, here i come.

what's not to love? living by the beach, staying with your parents that you havent caught up for a while, making new Sabahan friends, and working out to the max on my favorite jog spot. Yes... oh Allah please let it come true.

i've yet to post my pictures in my recent visit to vietnam. will do when i get the chance =).

have a great week ahead... yeaaaaay monday! ( i can hear almost the 70% of the country's population crying deeply inside).

i'll leave you with a super great video

i bet if i could sing and play the guitar like this, dayana would think im the most sexy man ever... after already being sexy. yes i am.

Frustration again...?

I met up with my boss this morning for a short chit chat and i inquired to him about my recent job interview somewhere in Peninsular.

Not to my surprise, he said that yes, i am releasable, however, maybe i wont be able to move in time for the April thing. "mungkin October kot?" he said. ended with a "kot" just made my knees weak again. i smiled my weak awkward smile, left and feeling completely rejected again for God knows how many times in my life when it comes to job applications. i used to remember, before all this, my only fear of rejection was from meeting up with girls. oh how mistaken i was then.

i just hope, if it really will be October, my management wont change their mind. i'm just tired you know? lonely and tired. next thing you know, they'd go "i'm sorry, we have great plans for you here" of which i'm praying that it wont be the case. id probably jump off a bridge.

i'm just really tired.

i miss KK and yet despite having my offdays on weekends next month, i'm unable to go. because some geniuses decided that they do all this simultaneous trainings and have people who rarely see their family become just further disengaged from them. to think they've learnt their lesson in coordination for the past years... every year.

Artist at work....


So there's this goat you know... over the hills, and he was like smoking some shit there...

next thing i know, we were laughing at a cow...

then came a huge bear....

we scrambled and ran stumbling down,

finally bumping into a wild hare,

then we were all laughing again wearing a crown,

that jack broke unaware....

jill came and found the goat, the cow, jack, myself and the stupid hare

laughing again and still smoking some shit there....

PDA....

sometimes, once in a while, people do PDA. yes, it's sickening to most, but sometimes, i guess we just kinda want to let it out.

However, doing it all the time, on your facebook, on your blog, on your twitter is just mad ridiculous. once a week sure.

and also, dont baby talk with all the symbols and shit. there's thing called "personal text messaging", "email" and a "fucking bedroom".

simple PDA is acceptable. peck on the lips/cheek = OK. Not tonguing or continuous touchy feeling. Simple messages would suffice. again... not every fucking day or some of those more chronic ones, every 5 fucking minutes.

btw... i have the most adorable loving wife. thank you.

Sucks....

it's a Friday night....

1. I'm working tomorrow

2. I'm still doing some work right now despite being sleepy because i need to touch up on my subordinates' evaluation. sucks to know that they're actually supposed to do this themselves, but apparently, here in this company, it's ok to do work FOR your subordinates because if you dont the higher powers will be pissed off at you. 

3. Sucks to know that when i'm doing this, and if they do get their merit, if you're lucky, 10% would come and say thank you. if not, give it 5%. 

4. I miss my wife and life 's fucking empty and demotivating without having her around. 

have a great fuckin weekend guys. 

Bull season....

Well it's the end of the financial year again, and hail the end of year evaluation season. i'm not gonna say much, but i guess this is a difficult season for both the boss and subordinate. 

Subordinate because some of them dont really enjoy listening to the truth why they just dont deserve it. 

Boss because, face it, it's not easy giving "feedback" to your employees the management way, and having someone not liking you and you know is gonna talk shit about you to your co-workers in the most unprofessional way which can eventually turn your life into a living hell. 

either way, all i can remind everyone, act professionally. 

Spend this... Not that!

Right, i have some wish list that i have yet to fulfill. but one of those things that after you spent it, you go... 

"what the fuck did i just spend on?"

one thing i would like to say that i'm not proud of spending on, but i know i want it so bad would be my very very new... Playstation 3. the games are ridiculously expensive, and the main reason i had to buy it because my life here in Bintulu has gotten lamer and lamer. if i do not get that PS3, seriously, my life would get more empty. 

but then there's like other things that i really want to spend on, like, a Desktop? new set of lens for my camera? this is not cool at all. if only i was so rich. great, now im totally talking like a little child wishing he had shitloads of money and spend on 1000 ice-creams for himself. sad. 

Decisions....

Well, next monday will be another interview session that i'll be going through. the thing is, this time around it's gonna be in Kertih instead of in KL where i really want to be. 

but i was talking to my dad for advice last nite, for his prayers and restu. one thing he did tell me, 

"Abang, sit down and think about it deeply, dont be too sad of your current life. think about of how bad it could have been if you are not where you are now, and think of those friends in your past life who did not have as much opportunity as you did. motivate yourself, and pray for the best". 

it's been the most difficult 5 years of my life i have to admit. it has not been easy. but after what my dad said, i may have just ended up ignoring what i've always had. if i didnt end up working here, i'd maybe not end up working at all or just working somewhere that probably wont give me the life i have now (despite the fact that its more working for the money). most of all, id probably wont have known my wife and ended up with psycho miserable person with endless drama. 

i guess, if i really do get this movement to Kertih, sure, it's still 4 hours away from my wife, and sadly, much further from my parents, but things do happen for a reason. i'm hoping there will be new opportunities there, and there will be a new set of motivation to make me a better person. if i do get this transfer, i really need to fight to be better and at least as studious as i was back when i was in high school. i need it back badly. 

well... i guess, the conclusion to the last entry is basically hoping that not only for me, but for everyone out there, what you really want may not come true. when if it doesn't dont give up hope ever. and just delve into something new, make new dreams and make yourself a better person as a whole. i know this is way positive shit, but i have to. this is for me. come on irfan. be a better man. 

Clutter....


i've been in this place now coming to my sixth year. currently im so sick but i cant afford to take annual leaves. there's so many weddings i have to go to this year, it involves me traveling from here on this damn island to KL so many times. which in turn, costs more money.

im sitting in my dark room with one light wondering when will i be able to move on to a new place and really pack my things properly so i can store them again properly in a nice permanent place.

my friends are slowly resigning from the company, and some are transferred, which eventually leaves me alone here uninspired. this cant be. i've always wondered as a kid, things only get better when you get older. less depressing and shit. but no, actually it can in turn be worse if you dont play your cards right. so right now, im holding to my cards, waiting for the right time to fold and leave the table to a new one. however, right now, im still stuck.

sometimes its so hard to believe that my room is now stuffed with 6 years worth of shit in here. i dont put my books and all other nice stuff i have out in the living room because its a room i rent with 3 other guys. if it was a house that i stay with my wife, sure, why not.

basically, right now, im always wondering, when will my cards turn up, or at least when will it be the right time for me to fold and leave and sit on a new table.

Drugged....
i've been literally sick for the past 2 weeks that its ridiculous. my throat hurts and ive been stuffing myself with random meds i dont even know what the effect will be. i got an antibiotic that smells so bad like rotten egg. why or pharmacist why must your create such capsule? cant you create a capsule that tastes like oreos? at least it'll make me wanna swallow more of the meds.

you know you got a good set of meds when you wake up from sleep, and you're walking to get a drink, and during all that, you're feeling like you're floating and at anytime you can fall, but you're not. great feeling, but shitty feeling because it makes me break with cold sweats.

worse thing is, im working tomorrow and my job consists of me running around at the field managing people and getting things in control. if i cant do that, then fuck me what the fuck am i doing at work?

Witty... or not so witty?

i'm not so sure if i have any witty thoughts for now. oh wait here goes.... wait... nope its gone. i had one but its unoriginal. well, talk about relationships. how bruno mars say, he'd catch a grenade for the girl?

first of all, why is the girl being thrown a grenade at in the first place? 

second, is it that easy to get a grenade for someone to throw at people just because they dont like them? where is this? Colombia? Afgan?

third, my close friend got punched unnecessarily by a group of idiots because they werent satisfied the girl one of them likes preferred my friend. people kept asking "so was she worth it?". well, i guess she must be. because if she isnt, then dude, you've just set the bar for the next girl so high. professing your love will be difficult. now you might really have to jump in front of the bus or really catch that grenade so they wont go saying

"you got punched for her! what would you do for me? hah? hah?"

and come back to Bruno, yes, if you're already catching that damn grenade, it doesnt work out, what is it gonna be like for the next girl? hug a nuclear bomb? my friends, the lesson here is, start small. catch a tossed crumpled paper for a start. at least it's subtle.....

These are not the droids you're looking for....

Well i had this thought in my head about 2 weeks so here goes. Last two weeks during my monthly conjugal visit to my wife, on a fine Saturday morning we had breakfast together at this place called "Village Park" in Uptown at Damansara. For those who dont know, great place for nasi lemak.

So my wife and i had some kuih along with our meal and one of them consists my favorite kuih kacang. So as i've already munched and finished with mine due to being famished (another professional word for glutton), my wife was still savoring hers and somehow, mysteriously left a tiny crumb of the kuih kacang, of which I thought she didnt want. So being the oh so loving husband i am, i savored (another polite word for gobble) the crumb.

Coincidentally she was not looking when i did that, of course which was not my intention at all, and next thing you know, she was asking,

"Sayang, where's my kuih?"

Immediately, after having disposed the evidence, i didnt know what to do but somehow a defense mechanism occurred. and the conversation went somewhat like this:-

Wife: Where's my piece of kuih?


Me: huh? What kuih?


Wife: Did you eat it?


Me: huh? eat what kuih?


Wife: the small piece of kuih on this plate...


Me: huh? What kuih?


Wife: takde kuih ke tadi? (there was no kuih earlier on the plate?)


Me: huh?

and then she was quite and changed the topic and stared far in the distance. At that moment... i thought i might have been a Jedi. I wanted to tell the world,

"Men, we have found women's weakness, like Obi Wan, we only need to answer a question, with a question!"

yes... i may have found the solution....

However... less than 5 minutes after, i found out women has another set of Jedi powers when she looked at me all weird. not weird weird. but laughing borderlining with pissed off, if you didnt tell her what actually happened to the kuih. and of course, i said i ate it. my wife might be a Jedi.

Sorry men, apparently we have yet truly interpreted Obi-Wan's method. Maybe next time ok? next time... "What droids? These are not the droids you're looking for"

Laters 2010, Hello 2011....


Well... same time NYs in 2009, i was spending it lying on the bed in Bintulu, alone staring at the ceiling while "listening" to the fireworks roaring the skies. This year i was spending it still in Bintulu, alone, watching Van Helsing on HDTV. Do i sense improvement? oh yes i think i do... (smirking and showing two thumbs up despite the sad tears flowing down my cheek).

As i was driving off for my second breakfast this morning, i started thinkin of the first day of my 2011. Why not a simple journal of 2011 engineer Log style?

0712hrs - woke up thinking how it blows with the fact that i couldnt even try to stay asleep past 0800hrs is sad

0730hrs - turned on TV and watched family guy & simpsons

0800hrs - browsed through ppls new year's greetings on FB and thinkin how some of them are so lame and if not, sad.

0815hrs - wanted to pee... but there's simpsons is being really funny on TV

0830hrs - still watching TV

0845hrs - i went "the fuck?" i forgot to pee... this time i really went

0900hrs - made myself oats and a bowl of fruits.

0910hrs - eating and watching Family Guy on TV

0930hrs - got a text from a friend to have bfast out.

0940hrs - still watching despite not having showered

0959hrs - showered and watching TV msging my friend - i'm "on my way". horrible person i am.

1002hrs - i'm really on my way

1005hrs - first song im listening to on radio in 2011 is Fresh Prince's "Boom Boom Shake the Room" and thinking how catchy the song is.

1010hrs - Saw a super drunk Indon guy walking in the middle of the road causing unsafe driving and i went thinkin "damn, he must've had a hell of a new year's night to end up across the border and looking like shit".

1013hrs - had my 2nd bfast which consists of Roti Canai cheese and bland Kari ayam. well it's good. Had a conversation about work and the usual complains and wishin we were transferred back to KL

1115hrs - wanted to have my car washed. the shop's open, but when i was there, carwasherers (if there is such word) looked at each other and went, "i'm sorry we're closed". some NYs indeed.

1130hrs - went to Guardians to get soap. i went out of the shop with soap and floss.

1145hrs - checked out the most adorable cat at a pet store. thinking of hugging it till its eyes pop only to find the store owner jeering at me waiting to call up the gangsters just in case.

1151hrs - ran off the store politely before anything

1152hrs - got in my car and driving back home

1200hrs - feel pissed off on why the roads here in bintulu is just so fucking messed up.

1210hrs - stopped by Shell and got myself a Magnum icecream. oh yes... things are gonna get a little wiiiild.

1220hrs - at home thinking of what to do before my maid comes in

1230hrs - watching Inkheart on HDTV while writing this blog. yes, i have to tell ya'll that i watch in HDTV all the time coz its just fucking awesome.

1300hrs - maid comes in and i'm thinking "damn ur late"

1330hrs - thinking of what to do for the next 11hrs to make my offday so much worth it.

1345hrs - some celebs just really do suck at giving thank you speeches in award ceremonies....

1350hrs - i wonder how does kristen stewart feel her "small co-star" wins awards and got her first Oscar nomination as compared to her? i guess "SHITTY" would summarize it

1404hrs - folding my dried-for-3-days-already and thinking... oh wait... Vanessa Hudgens on tv... she Hawt yo - i know i can say that confidently... coz she's over 18... oh yeah...

1408hrs - Jason Segel is funny... nerdly funny

1409hrs - shit... California girl SUCKS

1410hrs - thinking of getting a facial... my wife hates blackheads... since it's been a month and im craving for makeouts... why not have a gay moment for 1 hour

1411hrs - "California girl" sucks and oh Katy, did u realize u woke up orange? did u make out with an Oompa Loompa?

1430hrs - drove off thinkin of having KFC and talk like a viking alone... in public

1445hrs - looked for that facial shop. couldnt find it and decided that it wasnt worth paying 100 bucks for a gay moment. u know how cheap they can get. Oh suh-naaap

1500hrs - got some dvds instead... i loooove malaysia

1505hrs - making synthesizer sounds outloud while walking to your car spells You Are Weird by the public

1510hrs - on the road thinkin if i should get KFC... and decided not to. had a big breakfast damnit.

1540hrs - watching "The Knowing". I dont know if anybody noticed this before but Nicholas Cage has a superbly big forehead... either that or he's just balding... which brings to mind... poor Abe aka Hafiz Hatim of Flyfm.

1557hrs - just finished making out with my Magnum almond ice-cream. yummy. sigh... i miss my wife....

1615hrs - shit... im hungry

1631hrs - Abe aka Hafiz Hatim called. obviously we were talking shit and thought he talking about Marion Caunter when he actually wasnt. you suck Hafiz Hatim

1700hrs - wow... "The Knowing" really is a movie that kindaaaa gets ur attention, but kinda NOT, after 30minutes or so.. but u still leave it on anyway while u phase in and out. damn this is a long movie.

1712hrs - i dont understand why do they have to bring rabbits into the spacecraft? dont they know the term "fuck like rabbits"? and i definitely know there should be a term "poop like rabbits" too. they're soooo gonna have to clean loads of shit... literally. Aliens are stupid i guess....

1730hrs - sending maid back home. damn it so late. my plan to jog went poof just like that.

1735hrs - decided to get that KFC this time round.

1740hrs - getting a foot massage would be great i guess. oh no wait a minute... getting a bekam would be cooler coz i've never had one.

1831hrs - holy shit, what a coincidence. am eating KFC and the KFC Malaysia CEO is on news. damnit... i feel like he's judging me. i went through shit this month ok!! i deserve that Hot & Spicy and a break from my diet. stop judging me old man... stop judging me.... (turns away from the TV)

1840hrs - fuck im stuck watching E! THS on former Mickey Mouse Club. bloody hell... i hate u E!

1915hrs - watching russell peters while eating. now i feel chicken in my nose

2050hrs - finished with Russell Peters, now on to Sorcerer's Apprentice. havent watched it, ppl say it sucked but fuck it. that's why piracy's there.

2120hrs - shit... i fell asleep. rewind the movie. okeh 2120hrs. this i wont fall asleep.

2145hrs - shit... i fell asleep again. damn im definitely tired. maybe i should watch TV

2315hrs - fuck that didnt help. cleaned up the living room to sleep upstairs

2335hrs - brushing my teeth and realize my gums didnt bleed this time round unlike most of the time. well... it has been a good 2011 so far.

2346hrs - well... time to post this blog and sleep. gnite yall and hope you had a better start of 2011 than i did. but then again... i did have an awesome ME time. so... guess i purposely wanted to feel bored. HAH! gnite again!

2347hrs - zzzzz