when it happens... it happens....

sorry i havent been online or updating my blog for a while. the day right after my last blog... somehow... weirdly enough.... it was a monday that i didnt feel so good about. didnt know why... towards the end of the night... when i got a phone call from my mom that my grandma is getting cold. that was around 9. at 10 i called my mom... my mom was on the way already to see my gramma. right after that... i called my aunt who lives with her... only to find out that... my beloved gramma has already passed. the gramma who has so much concern for me growing up. i knew before my mom even did. i called her up... and told her... only to find out right after... she was crying so bad. felt so guilty. things didnt go right the whole time i dont know why. i got the first flight to kk at 8am... so i was actually able to see her before she was buried. supposedly... then my flight was cancelled. had to take the 10am flight. only to reach the airport knowing on the phone that they're done with the tahlil pun. i just broke down then and there. i dont even care what you think. i miss her so much. you know... you just never had that feeling that you'd actually be reading yassin to the person very dear to you... and pouring water and flowers on her resting bed. never knew it would happen... till that day on.

ive always prayed hoping that id be by her side when she goes... but things didnt work out. maybe He has some other plans along the way. maybe. it was just really really sad. sad moment.

strangely enough though, death brings a meeting of a group of ppl that has already even lost contact or that you have met for a while. isnt it weird. the nice thing was i get to spend time with my nephew and nieces, and just sit down and watch my big family re connecting in a different way. strange... but true. sorry guys for not being able to come to kl, sorry for not being able to finish up some events in bintulu... sometimes things just happen that's out of our control.

i miss the ppl i love around me so much right now.... my family, lili, abe, faidz, fera, todi, mary... just miss chillin and relaxing... and just.... watch as our life pass by... but seeing it will always be worth it... with you guys around..... miss ya guys.....