yet another weekend done....

alrites... its yet another weekend in this boring dull dull place. my only highlight of this week was talking to 1717 on the phone, dinner at pizza hut with Sza2, and end the weekend with my sweet atiee. thanks girl. you were a great chat for closing the sucky week. so what have i done during the week. i dont know. all i know... ive been going through a lot of phases, and consulting so many ppl on career change. im still thinking about whether im going to do the career change or not. im not sure. right now... im so thinking of going into marketing. then after that, id probably do further studies on my own for MBA, maybe even CA. god knows. im praying for the best right now. hopefully i get to do what i want to do. im just praying every single day for He to show me what should my career path be. what's the best. what fits my soul, what jives with it... and something that i look forward in doing almost every single day. praying that id be shown the right path, right way of career that i look forward to almost every single day, not something id lay my head on the car window with my earphones on and watching my life go by just like that... Cement plants, edible oil plants, natural gas plants and finally... my job. im just prayin for the best.

isnt it weird... the only thing that differentiate of what i would be doing was a 'YES' or 'NO' to the question of 'Irfan, awak sure ke awak nak buat benda yang awak belajar skang nih?'.... and i said yes.... i think... i was really still influenced by everyone else in this world. after that... all i wanted to do was talk about something one is very passionate about. regardless the cash the money, will you be selfish? would you want to wait till your 45 to actually find what you really want to do? god knows.... one of the person i was consulting... kinda said something that i totally didnt expect... 'biasalah... dunia itu kejjam...' i was like... did he just say that? and he started saying things like 'biar pun apa jadikk, jangan kamu percaya dgn siapa2, biarpun bestfren kamu sendiri. saya sudah merasa assam garam itu... hakikat nya... dunia itu sangat kejam....' im like... great... im screwed for life. period. but im not going to let one thought out of 10 ppl i asked bring me down. so... im just hangin there. wondering more. probably be going to the top guy before he leaves for good. id probably listen to what he says more. hopefully its something i want to hear. hopefully.

I've actually already signed up to give talk for high school kids. a career talk. i voluntarily do this... mainly because... i dont want them to repeat the same mistakes i did. god knows... hopefully they get to do what they want... one day. hopefully.

aside all the thoughts and all... i was doing emceeing for two events. damn... it was nt easy... it was damn tiring. hahaha. damn tiring. dah laa panas plak tuh. i think its scorching season in bintulu now. seriously... i think there's only like 2 seasons here. its either really raining season, or hot scorching season. yeapss. last nite i learned it the hard way. i felt like swimming in the middle of noon at the club and went for a dip. never going to do that again. the water was nice and all. but damn it... the sunburn is BAAAAAD. im red, and hurting here. i cant even scratch my back. seriously it hurts. then, i also learned that... always check your pockets befre doing laundry. ive always checked, but completely forgot because almost all the time, my shirt pocket will be only a pen and name tag. that day, i had a cigar in the pocket. completely forgot about it. hence... bye bye cigar. and damn it... i have NOT smoked that for a while!! how sad is that.

well... its the end of the week... i have an audit next week... stupid association doing last minute HSE audit. damn it. im trying to prepare the bloody presentation and the deadline is by tomorrow noon. please please please. wish me luck... in my search for my right career, in my audit, in my life, in this place.... and good luck to you guys as well.....