bintulu jetlag....

im back in bintulu... after only one full day stay, and two nites, and one half day there. was worth it? it always is, and always will be. i was suppose to be back from KL on thursday... but due to some current events within my department... 2 hours before the flight... i was told not to go. last time... same thing happened... i went to the rest room, let off some steam... because i was so pissed. this time... i was shocked... but i was sad... only sad to know that lili was already excited in meeting me and picking me up at the airport. i smsed her, and told her i was not able to come. i was so very sorry, i really didnt mean it. then i picked up the phone to cancel the tix. within 2 minutes while the travel agent was talking on the phone that the company would be charged cancellation fee... lili's face just flashed in front of me, her being sad and all, and how she really really means to me, i decided to tell the travel agent to go on with the ticket, but i'll be back on sunday, and im paying with my own money. i didnt care. i really wanted this to happen. call me a cheesy romantic prick... i dont give a fuck. she means so much to me... i could not back down on someone i love now. so i went. it turned out to be one of the biggest change of thought, paradigm shift of my life.....

i read this book you know.... ermm... yes.. 'The Alchemist', by Paul Coelho. i rarely promote books in details in my blogs... but i must say.... this book, grips my heart as i was sitting in the middle of coffee bean in ampang, as the story, of a shepherd boy, who sold all his flocks of his sheep to reach his destiny, and those people who dont do something to achieve their destiny, they'll grow old... and quite complacent and decided that just leave their destiny, and do something they dont really like... and actually regret in themselves later on of how it would've been if they actually tried to reached their destiny. yes... it was about the book of destiny.... it was a n awesome book to read... and i could not wait to read it all over again. read it... if you're really lost of what you aactually WANT to do, this is definitely the book to reead!!!

well definitely read it again!! hahahaa.... seriously... get it.. is sooo awsome. about fulfillng your destiny no matter how fucked up the difficulties or obstacle were, you'd deifinitely LOVe this book.... awesome. but then again... reading this book has made me think more whether i'll be stuck in this hole forever? isnt it weird, i know i dont like what im doing since i started studying in the states... but then... i stayed through, and just didnt care of what might happen... and look what i feel now. i want to be like the shepherd boy... trying his best to fulfill his destiny, just doing what he really wants and gambles his life by selling his sheep, going away from his home, and travel the deserts just to reach his one thing he wanted to know in his life... his destiny, and his love. great book it is.


lastly, to my brother, faidz, you have flown, and all i can say, you were the coolest friend since i got here in malaysia, and without you, there KL would be something so ordinary that ive been doing the past 5 years i was staying there. i thank you very much. you know you're going to be living the life, travelling, being the shepherd yourself, finding love, and understanding life and the Soul of the World at the same time. i hope to see you again, take care... and good luck. you know you'd do great my man.....


one of the coolest dude ive known... rock on terror trio... rock ooon....


i dont believe in goodbyes... i only believe in see you agains....


'Goodbyes give me sorethroats... i need more hellos....' - from one of the last comic strip by the creator of Charlie Brown....