It has been a while since ive updated. hahaha. last one and a half week has been fuckingly hectic, and i must say, it has been the most fucked up period ive ever been in RPI. swimming in my environmental engineering assignments, work loads, im only taking 10 credits, but seriously, i feel like im taking 16 or 20 credits. we just knew the prof hates us, which completely brings the students down more. honestly, ive asked myself, do i really want to be an environmental engineer? am i really into this? i feltlike i was apart of corporate malaysia bullshit. since high school we've been injected with taking big exams, like UPSR, PMR, SPM, which most people say, kalau tak pass, you'd probably might as well quit trying to be successful, and start being a fisherman, a cop, or hell, even a janitor. i personally think it was the way how we were raised. even the education system says it. tak ramai kalau kita tengok, student asrama, nak jadik cikgu in the future. seriously, tak ramai. in my school was one, and i have so much respect for him. and i believe other students from other school see the same situation. sumer nak jadik someone big. someone successful. and by means of successful, people have the view of engineers, doctors, lawyers, architecture instead of people in entertainment, catering business, gerai business, (senang cakap self owned business), interior designer, anything, almost anything outside of that 4 first list. i know my friend ada restoran nasi briyani kat bangi, making money man!! seriously. i know some people who owns a gerai, yet has an evo 7, evo 8, modified rx7, mercedez, something not even most young engineer in his 30s could actually earn. another thing i hate, if one is going to a skolah harian, and another skolah asrama, some people will automatically say, eleh, skolah harian, tabley laa dier nak pi oversea, or aiks skolah harian? camner dier bleh dapat 4 flat. seriously, i think that's just so cocky. come on people, open your eyes, and know that He created everyone equal. i study here in the US, but if you compare dgn org yang dpt 4 flat kat mesia kat mmu, or uniten, they are technically way better than i am! so people, throw away those stereotype looks you have, stereotype thinking, and start make judgements based on your own analysis, your own understanding, without the influence of others, ESPECIALLY the media, or what corporate malaysia wants you to go for. join me and put up your two hands and lift ur middle finger to the bullshit that's been instilled in the minds of everyone. we are different each of us, so know that everyone has their own capability, own understanding, of something.
enough with the spirit talk, hahah. i just knew, last wednesday, that every year, at 4.20 pm, on 4/20, crazy americans smoke ganja in public!!! i went there (i promise you i didnt smoke!!) and was so amazed with the smell, and the haze that's just coming up in the middle of our campus!! you could see all the different ways they smoke with. blunts, sacred pipes, bongs, everything. i was just so astounded. and strangely enough, this happens every year, and the public safety, cops, just automatically dont go out of their office. just like that. its like, we know about it, but just not talk about it. so they smoke there for about 45 mins, and go to class, or go home. i felt like i was stepping into the 70s. hahaha. funny shit. if you ever come here in the US, you guys should drop by with a camera. i wish i knew earlier, so i could bring down my camera to campus at that time.
the distressing week ended with a nice early sleep... sorry buddy. as shitty as everything may seems, i know i'll definitely be done in less than two weeks. on thursday then, me and the guys were watching a stupid malaysian movie, and i told myself, that i can actually come up with a really good malaysian movie myself! started writing down my own script, very rough, and still in progress. insya Allah, kalau bagus, and very good, id probably try my hand and sending it to someone. hopefully. :).
Also, last week i had a photo session, and i got one personaly favorite of mine from sha's website. but i have some of my personal favorites as well. dont think couchy can come up with hot pics only. i AM hot. muahahaha. sorry, that's just a lie. heh.
lastly, i never knew that i could actually learn life lessons from naruto. and also, team building as well!! that's what people should actually show in professional development classes!! kick ass!! by the way, i just started watching since last nite, and currently watching episode 14. kick ASS!!
i came up with another sajak due to my released stress one wednesday. just felt so relaxed, and felt like writing.... hopefully its good for u guys...
Dewasa
Sedih....
Kelmarin, ku duduk dalam sunyi kegelapan hampa,
Terdiam, terpaku, menjerit, mengadu domba,
Terhadap nasib yang dikongkong oleh semua,
Tetapi di dalam hanya sunyi, terdiam, terpinga
Berfikir.....
Memandang jauh sebelum matahari terbenam,
Terdetik bunga yang layu berkembang semula,
Kian tersenyum melawan api sebelum terpadam,
Biarku guna mencari jalan yang hilang lama
Yakin....
Menghidu udara kebebasan sambil membuka tangan,
Tersenyum gembira mengenal dikau ketawa,
Menatap bayang meninggalkan kenangan,
Selamat tinggal dikau, Apa kabar Dunia,
Inilah detik semusim,
Berhenti Berkata, mula menulis....
hehe. really felt like writing. there's an RIAA issue that came up last week. honestly, it freaked me out. seriously. if there's one thing i hate most, its corporate USA. hahah. (im being soo michael moore right now). but im not kidding. its bullshit. going for orang yg tak banyak duit for illegal downloading, just trying to make off money out of something that's called ART, gunning down for college students who already have to pay for their student's loan after they graduate. its just really fucked up. im really againts this. fine sket2 cukup laa.. tak perlu nak sampai 750 bucks per song. i just dont know what else to say. but my friends, be careful, i heard they're aiming for people who are sharing first, then download.
well till then... take care... gambar will be posted soon. probably tonight. :).
ngorat fera....
guess models.....
the gang....
bad to the bone.... (courtesy of www.rpi.edu/~kadirs.)
my fave... the cowboy....
the poppins....
spider....
back profile....
chillin....
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