Reaching out....

it was a cool weekend... friday... went clubbing... saturday... bowling... and at nite clubbing again... then the next day watched a movie. of course... although i have to admit king kong was NOT fun to watch... but the fact that i was watching it outside bintulu... and actually spent time away from bintulu for 3 days... it was priceless.

and what a cool way to end the weekend... by going on a scooter with a friend.by the beach, tak pakai helmet.... i must say... my balls were left at home. i was the bitch. hahahaah. rasa cam such a rempit moment of my life. hahahha. but fun though. quite fun.

anyway... its the new year's this weekend... and... IM HEADING TO KK!! damn i miss sabah. heck... going to miri was already quite a blast as it was a far cry much more better than depressing bintulu. probably going to shennanigans. but in the morning i'll probably be heading out to kundasang to meet up with my friends.... we'll see how it goes eh? coz i soooooo want to see my miss melody. all cute and cuddly and mencairkan and all. huuu huu. who is miss melody? like the hottest filipino girl that has ever actually talked to me!! heck... hottest girl who actually ever DID talk to me!! sorry ija... she's much more hotter. hahaha.

anyway... i was sitting down... and thinking... the chances we make sometimes... are they all worth it? seriously.... what kind of choices must we go for? waiting for a love that's not being returned... no matter how high the hopes may seem? you must know... it's still just... a hope. is it worth waiting for someone who's been pushing you to the gutter god knows so many times? is it worth waiting for someone who is still in a relationship?is it worth breaking up with someone who has actually been there for you for so long... that you're so accustomed to their way... that sometimes.. when they're gone... you just feel... incomplete? is it worth sitting down waiting for a new job... a job that definitely fits your every criteria, a job that you know, you'll wake up smiling and feeling so eager to go to?is it worth just waiting, and watching the person of your dreams smile and pass by you everyday, without actually knowing how you feel?

at this point of life... somehow... my Carpe Diem... doesnt really seem to apply as much as it did back then. but it still does apply on certain aspects of my life. and i think... in terms of deciding whether that risk is worth taking or not.... i think it's up to each individual. buy that expensive custom made les paul guitar if u want to, as long as you think its worth the risk, get the girl, buy that expensive car, take that job, as long as you know... what to do... what to react... if things... just dont happen the way you dream it to happen... coz if you dont see it coming... it will SUCK... and you know, you will... feel like CRAPT....

reaching for the sun.....