Elsewhere....

just got of the phone with one of the most adorable ladies i came to know... my dearest kakak... lana-chan. congrats in your freshly new job. :). it kinda dawned me... that most people i know now are working... being adults... heck... people dont call you by your nick name anymore. things are really changing. one difference though... so far, right now, i know that working people are looking forward to weekends. as for me... i dont even feel its a weekend. it just passes by like that. basically... if you're in bintulu... time is nothing much. you grow old, but you wont even feel a thing... because... most of the time.... for spare time... you do nothing. that's the thing i would love to change now. start some outdoor thingy... full pump of testerone and all... yeapp.... but somehow... i think non-locals around here really need gorgeous women. sigh. but everyone knows... growing up... is not the best thing we're looking forward to. being able to be young, play around, hang out and watch TV with your friends, throwing snowballs at each other, and where teenage drama is widely displayed... by yourself... as well as by others.... heh. how would i trade my current life with the past four years and relive it again... no matter how sucked it got towards the end.

random thoughts... i never knew that speaking sabahan, not caring where you are... eventhough a densely populated area with semenanjungs... could actually attract a lot of ppl. i dont know if i should apply it in semenanjung. hmmm. maybe... we'll see. i'd probably need faidz's help on this one... introduce me to new group of ppl... and speak sabahan as if ive never stepped foot in KL before. heheh.

i dont understand sometimes... how people say that want to care about certain people... and say.. 'i understand what you're going through' and bla2. honestly... that's a load of crapt. what's more loaded with crapt are those who are trying to help those in dire need... without understanding what predicament they're going through. and what's waaaay more loaded crapt than the previous ones... are those who cause all these predicaments... and act as if nothing has happened, and think they can just patch things up the people they hurt around them after the other crashed and burned. understand this.... those people were there for you when things were fucked up for you back then, those people were there for you when everyone wasnt there for you, those people were there for you for a big portion of your life... regardless how you treat them, what they're condition is, REGARDLESS.... they were still there for you. and dont think they can just smile and act like nothing happened. please... understand.... some people may not have it easy like you do... so please.... understand......

weird... you know... being a pizza delivery guy... who's working on a Friday night for the past three years... ive developed the strangest habit. when my colleagues or friends start making plans for a friday night... id be thinking suddenly whether i'll be working at Pizza Bella, and till wat time will i be working. who will be working with me... and dreading the rush hour that's about to hit later in midnite and somehow... almost everytime... 30 minutes before we close. i know i wasnt having much fun working at the pizza place... but the fact how it really got to me after these three years... it was weirdly awesome? somewhat. heh.

hear from you guys soon... oh and fera dearest.... please do call me when abe and marien are there. i sooo want to hear to all three of you. dpt skype pun dah cukup cool. take care guys....