Pretentious....

it was another hectic weekend. and to make things worse... im eating like a pig. pigging out on excessive unnecessary food. i had my first shark fin soup... no only do i feel guilty of pigging to it... but also feeling guilty for creating a demand for shark's fin, hence causing an illegal hunt and killlings of these innocent magnificent beasts of the sea. yes... i did think that. i cant help it... im an animal lover. dammit.

so far... there's one hot girl here where i work. sadly... she's leaving soon to join MAS cabin crew. damn it... the good ones always slip away. hence leaving me the poor lonely fudger association here in good ol' bintulu.

im sitting down at this hotel for this conference thingy right now... and im beginning to develop some random thinking. how some individual are so pretentious.its already bad enough that they lie to others, but the worst thing is that they're lying to themselves... and not even noticing the fact that things are probably are going to screw up if they keep this up.

if an individual deserves a recognition, deserves something better than where s/he is currenlty, but the environment somehow could not allow the change, DONT demotivate them, dont purposely mock them up in their face. and you wonder why i hate corporate bullshit. from GE, microsoft, and overcontrolling right winged media... (CNN one example).

i cant wait to chill in KK this new year's meet up with sum1... AND meet up with faidz this coming january. hehehehehe. we're going to paint the town red my brother. with or without abe, sadly. wish you could be here nnt bro. but obviously you're chilling with fera and marien and todi in the UK... so bleerrgh to you guys instead. heheheh.

random thought..... are we going to make ourselves be the ones who do not take the risk, and just actually say fuck it to all our to-do list in life? and just look back 10-15 years later and regret for all the could haves and should haves? i think we should do something about it.... as for me... i have to wait.... till im financially stable......

missing something in my life rite now...

hidup ALIF TA WAU association... with regards... -> jiraiya sama.