Livin' it up....

In retrospect of dear ferr's past entry - Growing Pains, it kinda triggered me of how most of us are currently living our lives. ive seen myself 10 years from now, being out of shape, slaving under some corporation, doing something that they REALLY HATE eventhough they studied their asses for that major in college, without a decent pay, and debts of houses, cars all over. im ugly and single, and i sit at home every nite, INCLUDING weekends watching an illegally downloaded movie, and on certain nites, id go out to meet my great married friends abe, faidz, and ferr. hence, it dawned me... is that how i want to be living life? of course we need to earn something for a living, but to live an actual life... and living it... i think that's something everyone needs. everyone needs a certain mecca, certain getaway, to make sure there's always something to get you through life in these hard times.

yes... aku menganggur. ive had some ppl who kind of question me of doing the mtv audition, and even considering being an mtv host if i actually got it. some say it was a waste of college, some implemented it was a waste of time, some implemented i'll never make it. but hey, if i didnt even get it... im proud to say... i was very close to the best thing ive actually REALLY wanted to be than most people out there. most people who works a life that they bitch about, being bored, doing paper work, in front of the computer day and night. and say, yeah sure, work is okay, but what they actually want is to be a professional surfer, be in a rock band, own their own company, be a zoologist, be a doctor, in fact, be the best thing you can be.

and alhamdulillah, although being unemployed, currently, i AM living life. i dont always sit at home watch TV, chat, go to CC. ive always wanted a relaxing morning where i jog leisurely, beside the beach, in the jungles, breathing each and every breath, each and every second that He has given to me. i got my scuba diving license, something ive always wanted to do since i was a kid. discover new wildlife in the tropical forests, tracking my way through wild pitcher plants in the early morning mists, admiring the endangered majestic creatures that was made by Him, go on boat rides to the middle of the sea and fish, relax, and do leisure dives, watching creatures most people has only seen from a fish tank, on their plate, and text books. and yes... instead of being a wuss and going out of the stereotype of being engineers, lawyers, accountants, ive really actually tried for the thing that i really actually wanted to do. yes i know, adult life will most of the time be sucky, will be boring, but if you let it get to you, and always find your mecca, your getaway, it'll always remind you that you are alive.

so my dear friends... you have to question yourself, besides sitting down relaxing at home, watching TV, go shopping, chill with friends... what are the things that you have ALWAYS wanted to do but never did. surf? be a professional photographer? be a race car driver? be an equestrian? sky diving? wind surfing? travel somewhere so randomly alone? push yourself to do it... stop bitching about your life... and live it. and dont ever think im wasting my life away... coz i know... im living it.... :)

Selamat BerPuasa....