Corruption Junction, What is your function?

So, since i dont have as much activity as i would have in KL, i will then again start my ramblings. ~Boombiddy buzzing in headphones~> thus one of the unsolvable issues where people my age talk about in coffee shops or mamaks these days is the Corruption issue. yes i am usually weirded out by the fact why is our country one of the most coruppted countries in this world. and as sucky as it may sound, the one of the most corupted groups are the ones who enforce the law in this country, and the ones who actually rule our people. These groups of people should be a good example to normal citizens, but instead, they harrass us with blackmails, threaten us physically and mentally, and sometimes tend to do the same to the closest people around us. What is sad is the fact that this country is one of the third world muslim countries which is advanced, both technologically and culturally, and supposedly a country that practices Islam. With those attributes, the nation is automatically an example to most growing countries around the world. But with this attributes, how could we actually make a difference? with the strong corruption vibe in our environment, normal citizens also evolves into cavemens with very little moral values. hell, even the coffees paid in coffee shopes or mamaks by some people are for their 'duit kopi'. nak catch up konon, tup2 they're just trying to pay for the people's break time so they could actually sneak in some tight security so that they could get some really classified documents and leak it out to the public. i had roughly the same chat with En. Hatim, who i must say not only looks like a man with principal, but also acts it. he stresses out the fact how young accountants can be way much richer than he is now, although he has been in the accountant business for such a long time. yet he refused to take part in the 'trend' mainly because he knows if he would have done so, the education, the food, the roof that he has to offer his family, would be haram. as simple as that.

but basically from my own analyzation, money talks. as long as you dont start doing it, you'd be okay. but once you do, you know money flows to you like diarheaa. it just keeps coming. and you know the only way to stop it is true heavy medication, strong mental, and lots of tea. ( i dont know if drinking a lot of tea can actually help you stop corruption but i know it definitely works with diarheaa.) hopefully one day this is an issue that i dont need to be involved with, but if only the world is perfect. sigh. i think what actually matters right now, is our own values and how we take care of it....


@ Rexona "IT WONT LET U DOWN!!" (screamin it out till your throat tears).

1 month holiday.....

wow... now im back in luvly sabah. muahahah. after 1 whole month spending time away from home. i was only like 2 weeks in sabah, and was supose to spend only 10 days in KL. but muahahah... with some twist and turns, i was in langkawi for two weeks, and came back to KL for another week. i must say, thank you abe, faidz, fera, and sung who made my stay in KL heavenly. strangely enough, im probably hunted by bfs from around KL. muahahahha. no2 not really. tuh perasan namanyer. (right now listening to jammin' by bob marley).

so some recap of what did i do during my stay in peninsular. well one thing mainly.... BORA OMBAK. muahahahah. sigh. im missing that place already. such a cool place to chill, lay back, aaand relax. thanks ferr. muahahaha. and really really lay back and relax. while i puff away my first ever CUBAN cigar. hahaha. adik2 jangan merokok, tak baik utk kesihatan. tapi curut elok lagik, coz "cigar you dont inhale, you puff... it's style and class"... (from the words of a manager in havana club). anyway, back to BORA OMBAK. it was such a nice place to chill, especially with the nice ambience, setting, and quite nite to just relax with our pantuns kicking along. about pantuns, man, ive been doing that a lot during my stay in KL. muahaha. kat KL, kat bora, kat kedai mamak, kat keta Abe... yeap... sgt menarik.

Also, went to hani's party. i thought i would see some hot looking chicks there. yes i did. but mostly really snobbish. peh. but i must say, i hate fraternities BIG TIME, but damn it, i was such a frat boy during my stay in KL. hahaha. saksikan Rexona "No Sweat Challenge" episode 7 - 9, setiap selasa, jam 7.30 malam, di TV3. hehe. but seriously, what is up with malaysian audience? very attentive. come on, hype it up a little. like insturactor Furacao stresses, 'energia, energia, camaradas...'.

went to watch AF with abe and faidz while seeing faidz cry... priceless. muahahaha. well most of the time, it'll just be the three of us, me abe, faidz, chillin somewhere in KL, eating, smokin, and makan nasi lemak waterfall. hahah. so good. and like most of the time, itll just be testosterone, talking why the hell are we single, or just listening to someone talk about some girl... i wonder who. hehehe. and again... in a manly bonding way. very manly.

also, went to audition for MTV VJ. hahahah. sigh. hopefully dapat, if i got it, damn it son, it'd be such a rockin time. i could do shows with my dear denise... sigh. she is soooooo hot. period. with the skinny hips. it was like whoa. and she's like sooooo sweet. and ah man... i was seriouly on cloud 9 that day. that was like the only time in peninsular that i had that feeling. man. on that day. she's like.... sigh... tatau nak explain camner. my idea of THE GIRL. hahaha.

btw, arituh masuk TV... 3R. okay... i SUCKED. things just went blur, i wish i had more preparation, i didnt know that she'd be asking immediately after the movie. i couldnt even re-organize my thoughts. aah... blarggh... dah lepas. like did anyone even see it?

went out with Ili, i must say, (in thick english accent), smashing good time. and ungu violet... just so sweet. but then again, now i hate romantic movies. because they potray all that sweetness that someone should do to get a girl, or basically some media bullshit, saying its not that hard to get a girl. BULLSHIT. it just pisses me of because reality is NOT like that. NOT LIKE THAT AT ALL. there's more back stabbing, cheating, heck even complaining about they're significant other to they're friends. one word... BONGOK. okay... let's put that topic in one box, and throw it away into the sea.

well kalau panjang sangat tader orang baca kot, but anyway, a great time, i didnt come back with any aquantainces, but i know i came back with the thought of satisfaction being able to chill with my great friends for the last time, before we all start going on with our lives.... to abe, may you have a great semester overseas, to fera dearest, hopefully i'll see you again in the future as prettier as ever, to faidz, may you grow taller when we meet again, to sung, may you become a family man with your new work, and to others... may we meet again sometime in the near future... definitely......

This sucksss....

so, its been a week im here in Malaysia. and right now, im already wishing i could get a job ASAP. honestly, it sucks. back in states, i have my own place, my own car, if i travel, i could easily commute in my own car. kalau travel, if i need a place to stay, senang jek. but here, its not what it used to be, back before i went to the States. now all my buds are grown up, and working. segan nak kacau. sigh. it sucks growing up. wishing i could be an indian TA teaching Heat Mass Transfer in RPI. back in RPI, i could just chill with the guys in front of the TV, and i must say, lay back and flow like old times in 201. boleh dgr ellias bercerita pasal life, pastuh tengok TV lagi, main chess lagi, pastuh bleh kuar tengok movie, chill with my friends. CHILL!! sigh. this is.... depressing....

Jalut... Si Tukang Urut.....

Obsession....

I've been here 5 days, and i could not stop noticing the banner, the advertisements, the articles regarding the 'BEST'show ever made in Malaysia. Akademi Fantasia!!! YEAAAY!! best giler weyy!! mawi tuh, nyanyi best, felix tuh kelakar giler wey!! lagu dierang nyanyi sangat laa hebat, pastuh dierang nih memang berkaliber.

first of all... for those who didnt get it... i call this sarcasm. secondly, those are the only two people that i know of, because ive heard felix's name coming out of my TV set in a commercial for nothing other but, of course Akademi Fantasia. As for mawi, i saw his name on the front page of berita minggu, and the endless flooding on the chatbox at astro's channel 15. check it out if you havent. it's a great representation of what our malaysian culture is. full of wonders, excitement, and supportive spirit. so full of it, that you may actually throw your remote towards the TV screen so it would stop. and while you're at it, you would probably purchase a rocket launcher from E-bay, and blast off the satelite dish that gives all the audience the great touching diari.

Yes, this time there are sabahans again, as it was last year. i would want to say im proud, but honestly, ive had it. i want to watch akademi fantasia, but yes, i've had it. not because of the show, not because the corporate bullshit i have againts astro's connection with maxis, but just maybe.. i think, and this is probably 90% maybe (i can come up with bullshit statistic too, just to make sure i can convince my readers), i think, somewhere inside me, and god help me, that i think, just MAYBE, is what clear minded invdividuals composed of 'ramai penonton2 belia' also think, the reason i refuse to watch AF, or most people who hate AF, is mainly because of the extreme obsession of AF BY the fan themselves.

there are more important issues to be concerned of in this world, if ur into current issues, you'd probably know that now at least 4 suspects have been identified of pakistani descendants who are also british citizens. if ur into something like sports, you'd probably know right now in the US is the beginning of baseball season, and you should start putting on your Red Sox hat and hope they win another world series just to show that they were always the best team in the 'world' where the past years of many2 games they were ALMOST the best team in the 'world'. if ur into economics, well... then you should try read the wall street journal, or read forbes, coz i dont really know what's current issue on that one. but then there's entertainment. now... AF is in the entertainment business. but dear readers, it is SUCH a BIG impact towards our lives. if we dont watch AF, i could actually hear someone crying out loud 'why oh why is AF not on the air? bodoh nyaaaa' yess... memang bodoh... pasal kau pi obsessed sgt.

if im not mistaken even datin sri hendon is irked by the fact that our community, harapan bangsa, are just way too obsessed with something that is just so trivial, that doesnt really motivate an individual to study, to trigger their minds and actually become an entrepeneur for our rising nation. damn im getting to myself. but honestly people, fans actually fight just to give a stand that AF is way better than Malaysian Idol, or fight their way through a throng of crowd with their kids (heck even a baby) in their arms just to grab that 10 ringgit ticket, so they can scream out 'Felix!! bangga aku bah!!' or 'Mawi!! ko idola ku!! ko nyanyi paling sedap sekali!!' compile all the CD's and actually be proud that you have all those episodes, even from season 1, and memorize their stats, AND the fact that you're over 30 with one kid, or heck even in the 20s, to be overly obsessed with such show. Im sorry dear AF fans, but honestly, a line must be drawn. there is a line between loving it, and obsessing about it. if u find that you wake up the next day, watching each and every reruns of AF, and getting constantly AND overly pissed by your favorite's dismissal, AND, you're over 20, please, PLEASE give ur self a REALITY CHECK!

okay, im sorry, but that's what i think. nak tengok, sila, heck i think after this entry, i'm probably going to watch some of it, just to know who's who, so i can actually cope with what's what, and if some people actually come up with these characters as an analogy, or heck even in spur of the moment topics in meetings, i think i have the right to know some of it than just being too ignorant. but please please PLEASE remember, tolong laa berkadaran, and just dont get way too obsessive about it. my family has actually stopped being way too obsessed about it, and alhamdulillah. the only thing they watch is the concert, which is only once a week, and dont even bring up the topic to the dinner table. very satisfied already.

20 years from now, these guys would probably be in a malaysian version of Surreal Life, and someone who is an equivalent to Da Brat would actually just say it to his or her face... 'dude... you're a HAS BEEN. PERIOD. you could've done better if you were doing real estate business.'

so dear fans, please PLEASE, give yourself a check to find out if you are OBSESSED with AF, or you just LIKE AF.

Thank you.....

(amazingly, im writing this in a pissy mode, and i have not cursed one bit. fuckin strange... hehe)

Home... home down the range....

Back... actually ive written one entry already right after i came back. but then due to streamyx 'FAST' connection, i was disconnected. and couldnt get re-connected. thus, after two days, i'm writing another one.

how's the flight? like every flight, amazingly cramped, unbearable, abe was sleeping like a rock, i was listening to my ipod, reading a book (which im currently reading... Lies and the Lying Liars who tell them, by Al Franken. great writer, and very articulate when he speaks on TV too), and not a lot of interesting stewardess. there was one steward who kept staring and smiling at me. FREAKING me out man!! so arrived in KK, first thing, my dad brought me to a restaurant, eating assam fish-head and mixed vege. yumm yumm. i must say, i have not eaten chicken since i came t sabah. ive only eaten fish, and veggie. and damn it... i love it.

the next day, due to the unbearable jetlag, i woke up early, watched the kumars at no. 42 (funny as hell!!) at astro, and then my dad brought me to karambunai resort, one of the best resort in sabah. the feeling? GREAT!!! went there, my dad had a golf game, i went jogging by the beach, empty private beach, and just sat and watched the oceans. im getting darker pretty fast though. then went to a restaurant where i DONT HAVE to pay coz my cousin is the boss for the golf club there, and i just chilled under the roof, with the fun spinning, and it was outdoors, and its just NEXT to the golf course. feeling? GREAT! i sat down, sipping tea, reading men's health magazine, and just relaxed. ahaha.

the next day, i drove a lot though, btw, my dad let me drive his new toyota hilux pick up truck... feeling? GREAT!!! driving in sabah... feeling? FUCKED UP!!! people here really really dont have respect for each other, AND themselves when driving. im not only talking about sabah, but the whole malaysia. kalau bagi jalan kat sorang, segala satu hutan pun amik peluang, all the gajah, all the badak pun mau lalu. tension giler. parking? SUSAH!!!

today, woke up early, dgr Azan (which, is such an amazing feeling. azan kat laptop pun takleh lawan), sent my mom in the heavy traffic, and again... the driving just really sucks, and then went jogging. jogging here in Malaysia tires me easily. the heat, the dehydration, just sucks the life out of me. but all in all... so far... i am NOT bored. so no complaints, i miss troy, miss my friends (as i dont have any here in sabah), and hopefully i see you guys in KL!!!

take care... and much love....