Mercy mercy mercy....

Hey guys... labor day holiday just ended, im flushed, tired, but every moment spent in KK was a bliss. tired... but a bliss.

no matter what, i'm a sucker for nature. i just love sitting down by the ocean closing my eyes feeling the wind brushing by me, and the waves coming up to say their hello, and birds flying and sometimes just glide on a static position... probably feeling the same way im feeling. i love sitting on the balcony where my room faced the green mountains while the clouds just hangs around the top covering all the creatures from the drops of scorching heat. when the sunsets... the mountain would just glow and it gives you this chill behind your neck, and uttering the words of
'Subhanallah' silently while the mists creeps slowly towards and around you to calm you down from all the pretentiousness and ridiculousness of the world.

yes... i'm a sucker for nature.....

Understanding is not just Reading....

okay, i decided to write this one short and simple. i read this book given to me by Dayana's dad, and i think it's kinda inspiring and triggers something in your head.

basically the whole gist of it is about the Book of Islam... the Al-Quran. i think we've all mostly been thought since kids, even our parents to just READ the Quran. most of them didnt state the meaning of every word within the Quran.

i also found out from some of my time visiting the house of God, every single word, every single hum, has a reason into it, has every meaning. The whole summary of this part of my writing is just serving to you as a reminder. start with the simple Surahs first, and understand them. dwell in the meaning, the beauty of the whole ayat constructed and feel it going into you. understanding how it applies in your daily life and making yourself into a better person everyday you wake up. Understanding... is not just Reading... do your part.

Famine... are you sure???

Early last week or was it the week before, the whole world has been told by the media that food prices are hiking intensely and it will affect and contribute to more famine, depression, uprising, civil war and most of all poverty throughout the nation.

Immediately the first headlines read something like 'World bank declared....' 'World bank announces....' bla bla yadda yadda. and i think i saw the news where President George W Bush declares that they are requesting for more funding to tackle this problem and World Bank to offer more support to all struggling countries.

Now... my question... how deep can this really go? Yes, i must admit that due to the hike of the energy prices throughout the world, it is slowly creating a whole domino effect on every other prices of your routine items (bread, rice, flour). the fertilizer business is growing exponentially these days to USD400++ per tonne this year as compared to last year and the year before where it's only USD300++ and USD200++ respectively.

But in my view... all what's happening currently should only make a very slow increase of the food prices worldwide, not immediate. However due to the media that's mostly owned by the 'Great Power' it just completely escalates the t = time factor due to human psychological effects. the media injects everyone in the world this FEAR of what would happen and tell them... 'Hey... dont worry, we have the resources, we're here to lend you the help you need'. Keyword people... LEND. if most of you dont know, World Bank, IMF, belongs to the 'Great Power'. this desperation would cause the affected countries to go to these international fund and cause them to be in a very huge debt.

What affect does it do? Okay, it's like this, you meet an Ah Long (malaysian Loan Shark), he says our interests are low from the bank, all that blas and yaddas, simultaneously you're desperate. you borrow... you're HIS. you cant ever payback, and all they need is your help... in a very dirty way. ask you to stab your own friends in the back, ask you to support them no matter what they do, no matter how deceitful and heartless their project is (obviously covered with a batch of flowers around), so on, so forth. you BELONG to them.

guys... i think it may actually be, the modern way of colonization. probably, we may have not even noticed... that they're already actually here. hmmm. whatever it is, as a citizen, do your part. Lead, not mislead. Develop with considerations and alternatives... not destroy everything. I cant imagine what's in store for us 10 - 15 years from now in this country. let's just pray for the best.

Community indeed....

well... currently i play basketball every Tuesday and Sunday here, and for the first time ever, i sit down and play with a whole group of chinese of whom i have no idea who they are. Some might be CEOs, some might be an Ah Long, some might be just a normal guy who sips their coffee on a Sunday morning reading the news with the family.

Here's the thing, i find it awesome playing with them. I may not understand most of the time what theyre saying to each other, but playing with them, somehow it opens up your eyes how they work hard to help out each other, doing things together as a team... and not pulling a Kobe almost every single second. and these people are a group of strangers. It's just different from how i used to play it in highschool and Uniten. but all in all... it's amazing.

which triggers another thought it my head. my chinese friend, who's leaving the company this month to work in Singapore (congratulations to him for pursuing something that he feels best for him) told me that, when he was studying in the US, playing Basketball was a gathering of group of unknowns. you sitdown by the court, say your Hi's shake the hands around you, and ask if you could join in, of which, almost always, they say 'Sure man, we're short anyway'. it triggers your ability, playing with unknowns, some are really good, some so-so, some are just feeling the leather ball on their skin to see if they're made for this game or not. not only does the game make you a better player... but also a better person, increases your PR, network... and most of all, your sense of community.

when you play this game, you dont need to make appointments with your friends (who either dont come or are fashionably late, of which annoys you). you go, you play. Sadly, i've never played much with the locals in the US. mostly inferiority complex. they're tall, they strong, they're huge. but i should've just gone and build that confidence and build that skill.

now... how does it work with the people in this country? do you sit down by a field, and wait for an existing game going on let's say, Football, and you ask them, 'hey, can i join in?'. you'll get replies either:-

1. shrugging... 'oklah, oi guys, this guy nak main. masuk team saper nih?'
2. 'sorry la brader, dah penuh'.
3. or a classic BS, 'we're practicing rite now, all member2 nih'.

why is there that mentality? i wont lie, i had the same thoughts too. worry of them clicking, worry that they dont understand our level of playing, worry that they're just way too serious. i saw this in futsal, i saw this in paintball. some people are just really good, they wanna join in, but everyone just dont think it's cool. how does that develop your level of playing, your thinking, you ability? how? why is there no sense of community? why? what can we do to change all this perception, this barrier?

yeah... maybe i'm thinking too much... but... i know im making all the sense in this world dont i? think about it again.

Labor day pics....

well here are some pics just for a quick update...


my dad, myself, and Azman (my Sis's BF)


family trip up on the mountains... Nadia is still sleeping....


mountain view during the sunset....


two faces who has not showered and feeling really cold and smelly....


i think i might be constipating....


hehehe... my new shoes... made out of HEMP. those who dont know... please la dont be ignorant and just smoke em... ahahah


Azman commented on this picture... said it's not bad at all... i created an anticipation for the viewer. he's a tutor as a grad student for MMU in Film & Animation btw... so it was quite an honor....


these are special kinda fish. crazy tame. you put your hands in the water with the food, and they'll suck on your hands (they have no teeth) and create a bekam-ish around your hands. verrry cool. basically for therapy la.




Spread the loooove... peace out....


at Sabah Tea... a very beautiful place... serene, overlooking the mountains and calming....






okay okay... i was just trying to be in the mind of a Colombian Drug Lord. wont that be amazing if all the tea are actual poppy and weed grown illegaly, and we're silently surrounded by people with AK47s and sniper rifle waiting for you to make the wrong move? i looove Tea. Green stuff is always good.




okay... my attempt on photography... seriously thinking of an SLR....

alrites... just noticed it's a damn serious topic im going through. hmmm oh well. once in a while, it doesnt hurt to think that way.