Ferr... congrats... you're a quarter century!!!

hey ferr... ur a quarter century!! that's half way to 50!! 75 years to go to reach 100!!

the last time i met you was around end of august 2005. that's almost 2 years from today. the last pic i have of you is only in my cellphone with your new geeky dorky glasses that you still make it look hot with. i wish i could upload it in on my hard drive (the only thing i live on now).

all i can say, is you've been there for me when i was in slumps which really sucks, and i try to be there for you the best i can as well. despite the distance... amazingly we still keep in touch via sms at least once a week. now... that's definitely something.

I cant wait to see you in KL soon. gonna hug you so much. hopefully we can do as much catchups as we could, and just chill... catch up... videos, pics.

I still remember our breezing days in my room A201 and definitely in mcGiff and who can forget boston. we totally re-defined chilling. now... we need to catch up on as much chillin as we can. live bands, spend time at the old folks home, spend time with orphans, chilling at a jazz bar, or just at a park and talk with the gang. anything... anything!! okay... obviously we wont do the latter one because of the EXTREME humidity and CRAZY hot temp here in malaysia. so... please PLEASE do be ready for the hot weather.. and make time for chilling!!! after this is another year for me to see you.

so again sweetie... HAPPY Birthday!!!

on a another note

i didnt even know when AF started... but all i know... im happy that the hype isnt as much as it used to be. THANK YOU!!! for those who still do... please carry on with a better life. the show is just a way to suck you in and make you a zombie and a slave for the media bullshit to make extra money out of people's misery and personal life... and worst thing is, the ppl who are actually voting for the show consists of people who cant afford a lot of stuff. support our local football team, or your local political party, or your local school, something... as long as it doesnt consist of the whole malaysia crying for something so fucking trivial.

wicked random thoughts.....

so weirdly enough... during a meeting... this thought came out... how heavy is a severed human head averagely weigh. i dont think it would differ much with everyone's head rite? because i think everywhere in the world, our heads are just almost the same size as the other. the brain differs though through some ppl's oversensitivity and stupidity of judging something practical. you cant force people to do something they dont want by saying 'nopes nopes we're not forcing' but just keeps on yammering the same FUCKING thing all the time. (that's just my personal thoughts though. heheheh.)

what would it feel if i could just run away from the world i have now... to somewhere like hawaii or australia, work for a restaurant until i could open my own restaurant with attached scuba dive shop + surfer shop which i'll call big cojuna. all i do is work... then i go surf. have that surfer abs ive always wanted and just not give a care about the world at all. no ties no nothing. just a normal dude... who goes to work with sandals, hawaiian shirt, and shorts. then after that i'd probably continue part time study as a marine biologist... and then work with dolphins. hmmmm. that'll be the highlight of my life.

i wonder if i could sign myself up to go to poor countries and make a difference anytime soon. at least to one person's life. sudan... africa... india... afghanistan... indonesia... etc, etc. i really want to. if i was given a free trip for the opportunity to travel either to paris to take pics and shop til i drop with a 5K of pocket money or those countries to help out while living like them... i'd take the latter. just to get away from all the pretentiousness, bullshit, the selfish world... and do something else to make people feel more appreciated, to lift up their spirits, i dont mind. i dont mind at all. hopefully i get to do all that one day... one day....