Ouch....

Shit... wtf did i write last night? wasnt feelin' so right. hahahah. anyway... job interview tomorrow... freakin out lil bit although i dont really care as much. i really want to go back home to malaysia. there i can feel better everyday than how i already am here.

honestly... if this thing ever happens to me in Malaysia again... I'd definitely punch the person right into the face... spit on him... and go out with my brothers to Nasi Lemak Panas Ampang right after. that'd be great. Here... I'm an outsider... in other's territory, aper org buat tolak kepala kita pun, kita nak lawan balik pun pointless. kita kene bodoh jekk... tengok jekk how they take the best thing from you away like you're nothing. nothing.

I dont know what i'm doing right now... i dream everyday... nice sweet dreams about blank. i refuse to wake up sometimes because i wish the dream was a reality. but instead, reality is not nice to me. i feel like shit everyday... falling apart everyday... and i only receive sharp stares instead of nice round eyes that wrap the hands around mine when its bored and no ones around. nothing anymore.

Allah... berikan lah aku kekuatan... tunjukkan lah aku jalan yg benar semula... dan sedarkanlah aku dari niat jahat syaitan, manusia, dan diri ku sendiri... apa yang ku doa kan ini... ku doa kan untuk dirinya juga....

i'm soooo in love with laura prepon....