Miserable....

Today is somewhat an unexisting day to me. lately my life has been moving past so fast, that i feel like everything is happening in the blink of an eye. woke up in the middle of my sleep, and i lie here in bed, all alone, i cant mend, and only hoping my tomorrow will be okay.

HipHop....
I was once a great hiphop fan when i was back home in Malaysia. listening to tupac, bone thugs, cursing angrily at ppl telling how they want to shoot 'niggaz' and motherfuckers and smoking weed was somewhat makes me feel like im livin large. That was then. lately as i drive into my life in the morning and turning on the radio, i would then turn off the radio, and listen to my old cds. why? as i flip on from channel to channel, i hear thumping bass, and the same fucking concept of women shaking their asses, men looking for women for pleasure, party up with their bling bling all out to the nite. same shitty concept for the past four years ive been here. kepala banar. sorry to the hiphop fans. but personally, im praying for the day hiphop's legacy ends up like disco. DEAD. it just starts to get annoying. look at the video, and you'd see the same stupid thing. i may like some hiphop song, but mainly because its different. Black Eyed Peas, Eminem (well now it just seems the cliche for eminem. yes from your first album we already now how you want to kill your mother and bury her at the backyard. no need to say that in ALL your albums). I watched a short clip of Chris Rock, and it really was informational. there are to types of black people. there are black people, and the niggers. that's what he said. black people are the ones who are trying to change the concept of cliche blacks, when you live in the ghetto, you dont have to rob, you dont have to be gangsta. but there's nothing worse than white trash. now that's scary. well at least to Chris Rock. I'm not from the ghetto, but having to deliver pizza for nearly 3 years to the ghetto, the hood, i know how to differentiate between nigger and blacks. im not trying to be racist. but its just a fact. true fact. and nih org malaysia nak ikut. bodoh nak mampus. ingat jadik hiphop abis cool la. selagi tak asal sini, tak grow up sini, tak payah laa nak pandai2 jadik mat rap mat hiphop. if you look at the mirror you'd see an ass. Basically same thing as skinhead kat mesia. Come on laa wey. kat sini skinhead racist ke atas all non-white. yang korang nak amik idealogi to apsal. mak bapak ko tuh melayu. org asia. dgr lagu taper laa. tak payah laa nak ngada.

ah... fuck it. i shouldn't even be saying all this. bak kata sorang member aku yang agak mengada dulu.... 'alaaa dah besar, biar laa org buat silap dierang sendiri'. it seems less caring, but i think its true. but i work it differently. sound sekali. then fuck it.